My step-sister just lost a baby and our entire family was devastated by the loss. After months of prayer, it seemed like God was going to keep the little fella against all the odds. However, after almost nine miraculous months, he isn’t with us any longer. And it breaks my heart. But maybe, just maybe, we can rest in the Lord, because even in the seemingly darkest moments, God is still sovereign and His perfect plan is at work.

Even the best of us fail sometimes. We can forget to doubly clad our families on cold days (Proverbs 31:21). We can exasperate our children (Colossians 3:21). We can snap at our children and fail to extend God’s grace to them after God has been so gracious to us (Matthew 18:21-35). However, the guilty feeling that usually follows these failings is not one to be suppressed or glossed over with the help of wine (like some cultural influencers might tell you).

Last week, the “SBC this Week” podcast interviewed J.D. Greear, the current President of the Southern Baptist Convention. During the interview, he listed his goals for the convention of churches, one of which was to ‘get women off the sidelines‘. While President Greear sounds genuinely committed to helping women, this goal really bothered me as a biblically-faithful mama. What was he trying to say? When I am ministering in my home, am I not a good ‘partner in the Gospel’ and serving where God wants me to be? Is the work done outside the home the only Gospel work that matters?

I turned 29 last week. What a huge admission! And I feel grateful to God that I made it this far. If I make it, I will have outlived Jimi Hendrix, Amy Winehouse, Mac Miller, and James Dean.

However, in the weeks leading up to my birthday, as my husband inquired about how I would like to celebrate and what gifts I would desire, I couldn’t help but feeling underwhelmed with myself. Like I wasn’t worth celebrating. Ever felt that feeling?